Jtwenty7

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Opposite the Lead

There's not much I love more than a good book. Somehow the story breathes new life into the one I'm actually living. Have you ever had this feeling? It also comes with the initial steps out of a theater after an especially moving film. I remember walking out of Apollo 13 for the first time in Rockford, Illinois, being so proud to be an American. Or the way comedies lift our spirits and help us recognize the humor in the midst of life...the way a love story moves your heart in an almost physical way.

It sounds weird, doesn't it? Like I'm over-romanticizing something as simple as a movie or a book? Or better yet, like I'm the presenter of the award for Movie of the Year, getting ready to annouce the nominees.

I really don't know how to express what I'm thinking. All I know is that I'm in the midst of a great series right now by Linda Chaikin who, I'm convinced, develops characters better than anyone else. She breathes life into them as she writes and for me, the effect is a keen awareness of those I interact with on a daily basis.

Alright, I'll come out and say it. Linda Chaikin writes really good men. And despite the many years that my brother tried to convince me otherwise, there's nothing wrong with a good Christian romance, and you can learn something from it.

Suffice it to say that we've had our own little drama running its course through life the last several months. There's been loss, sadness, defeat, doubt, anger and broken relationships, followed by gain, excitement, hope and the promise of a new beginning. And willing or not, we've found ourselves in the lead for parts that we hadn't intended to play.

"Life is a storm, my young friend. You will bask in the sunlight one moment, be shattered on the rocks the next. What makes you a man is what you do when that storm comes."

If you're going to have to kiss someone for a scene, it might as well be someone you like. At least you would hope so. I spent twenty-two years dreaming about the man that would play opposite me in life. There honestly weren't many that tried out. I guess they were screened by a Casting Director before they even got to read for the part. That's what I'll tell myself, anyway.

The actor I'm working with has been great, but nothing brings out talent like a difficult scene. I have had the distinct pleasure of sitting back and just enjoying his work these past few weeks. Interviewing for a pastoral position is very unique because the wife gets to sit in for the whole process. I found myself looking at him, thinking he was probably the most impressive person I've ever heard or seen. His knowledge and creativity and passion for Christ are heart-stopping...in an almost physical way. I can only hope that I'll serve as a good supporting actress, one worthy of the part.

So I'm crazy in love and I probably should have just saved this one for a journal entry, but they're already packed. Lucky you.

**quote taken from "The Count of Monte Cristo"